What I've learned about this week:
Do not go to any store when I am craving a snack. If I do stop at a store, do not buy ANYTHING remotely snacky. i.e. Dark Chocolate Peppermint Bark or Nacho Doritos.
Because, unfortunately, if I do not portion things out immediately, I will eat incessantly. Even if I'm not hungry. Even if I feel disgusting afterwards. I ate an entire bag of Doritos that I bought last night between driving 25 minutes and breakfast this morning. YUK. Yes, I ran, but I still feel disgusting. And my stomach hurts. That also might have something to do with almost eating the full bar of dark chocolate peppermint bark.
See, I really think that the bag of muddy buddy chex mix that I ate on the plane messed me up. I have been craving them ever since, and I keep stopping at stores to see if they have muddy buddy chex mix--and they don't, so I buy something else. And nothing that I eat is the same as the muddy buddy mix. Yes, I could make some--but that would be even worse!
I have been mildly out of control--ate a home-cooked meal (including homemade apple pie with sugar free icecream), and pizza (thin crust cheese) and cheesey garlic bread (only 1 1/2 pieces)....
I am not beating myself up about my poor choices, merely reflecting and reminding myself about how I feel when I get out of control. And right now I feel gross. YUK.
I do feel better after running, but I really need some sort of cleanse or detox from the gross.