31 January 2012

Stupid knee

I know that Zumba and squats and lunges are not good for my knee--especially when it still aches.  But I am stubborn and I want to be able to work out since it is the only thing I am doing on a consistent basis (other than bemoaning my unemployment and feeling sorry for myself).  I'm not sure if it is pre-birthday grumpiness or just general grumpiness, but this week has sucked.  L's in Miami until Friday.
I'm just unhappy.  I am working on it.

In other news, I love my Soda machine:

I am obsessed with it.  I am already on CO2 cartridge #2 (the LARGE one too!) (I got it for Christmas from my mother and stepfather in-law).  There is a Coke Zero imitation I don't mind, and the Diet Cola isn't bad either.   L got me the fruit flavors to add and those aren't bad, and the diet grapefruit and diet cran-raspberry are also really good.  But I really just like the fizzy water.  

I also made slutty brownies from Pinterest for bookclub and they are to die for.  But only in small doses.  

Maybe tomorrow will be better.

20 January 2012


Currently filled with frustrations.

I am not the only one though, it seems that "falling off the bus" happens to everyone.  Lisa consistently struggles with her eating choices,  Beth has had a great realization about her eating habits, Sheryl is taking time off from the electronic world, and even Kelly, one of my favorite Body Pump instructors--who is super athletic, fit, and THIN, struggles with body image/social expectations of the ideal.

So I am in with an amazing lot of successful and talented women, all struggling as I do every day.  And I allow myself to feel sorry for myself because I don't have a job at the moment--and throw myself a pity party, pin more things on pinterest, read, and eat carbs.

I have been going to the gym at least three times a week.  The new Body Pump release is brutal, so I am not going as often as I should, and I am letting the dreary, blustery, wet, gross weather keep me indoors rather than leave to go to the crowded gym beyond my must-go-to-and-get-my-spot-in-the-back-of-the-room-because-I'm-anal Body Pump classes.  Besides the fact that I jacked up my knee (again) from Zumba two weeks ago.

I have been cooking all our meals.  I meal plan on Sunday, and now L and I don't have a competition as to who can be the least helpful when coming up with a dinner plan when he gets home from work.
What I am making for meals is another story...but I have been taking baby steps.  This week I hope to throw in at least two healthy meals and watch my portions.  Starting small will hopefully help.

It sucked when I realized that someone I once thought was my friend, really isn't my friend, and might not have ever been my friend.  It's hard to get past when there is no meeting of the minds or understanding.

Did you know that the government gives gas vouchers to parents who have had their children taken into custody?  Oh the things I am learning as a CASA about our government.

Ok.  Hopefully that is enough negative nelly-ness for now.

05 January 2012


I want to walk today--it's actually not raining, but last Friday I totally jacked my right knee (I think during Zumba), and it hurts like it did when I was jogging.  I went to Body Pump on Tuesday (the first workout since Friday), and skipped yesterday to try to rest my knee and I feel disgusting.  I have been totally eating carbs and sugar (way too much) and feel my clothes not fitting.  I am uncomfortable in my own skin and I know what needs to happen.  So I am taking baby steps.  I planned out dinner last night and tonight, and this weekend I want to plan all the meals for next week to avoid mindless crappy eating.

And that is my life in a nutshell.  So exciting that I want to barf.