Yep. I've been avoiding life. I've been avoiding the scale, eating right, writing, and the outside world. I haven't been avoiding working out. I am averaging 5x a week, and have been walking outside taking advantage of the nice weather (i.e. not rain). I haven't stopped going to Body Pump (3x a week) either.
It hasn't helped in the whole lose-weight journey.
I'm up to 247.5
And I am aware that if I was eating right, I'd be dropping weight readily. And it should be more of a focus and a priority for me. Instead, I tell myself, "after the holidays," or "when I get a job"...Neither of which are healthy approaches. I know. I am grappling with the fact that I most likely won't get to teach again, and I am not sure what I CAN do for a living. I have been applying for jobs left and right, and can't even get a response--from administrative assistant, to a corrections officer, to classroom assistant, to various state jobs, to--get this--McDonald's. NO RESPONSES. It is heartbreaking. Ok. That's all for now. I just haven't fallen off the earth, though that might be more exciting than my actual real life at this point.