Things I have been doing:
making these (but different colors including glittery/sparkley) for the wedding
applying to jobs
getting rejection emails from said jobs
obsessively looking at wedding stuff on etsy
designing and redesigning and obsessing over our invitations, which I can't do much about because we still don't have a venue
trying to not worry that we don't have a venue
eating and overeating and falling back into old eating habits
weighing myself and hating what I see (234.4 last time I looked)
working out every day of the week in some fashion (at least 1 hour) except Saturdays and Sundays (mainly Body Pump (3x a week) and other classes)
reading (six books completed since the end of June)
when there is sun, I lay in it
trying to not get so down that I completely lose control.
I have been working out consistently, and if I was eating right to balance the exercise, I'd totally be rocking in the losing the weight aspect of my life. I know that it's bigger than that though. There are some underlying issues that get in my way after I do well for myself for a while. I am letting the no job, no money, hatemybodyanddon'twantaweddingdressbecauseI'mfat, get to me.
I have been in this place for a considerable amount of time, and I have been trying to not let it get to me, hence the not blogging. My friend told me that people want to read both the good and the bad, so I will try to write more. I just hate being Debbie-Downer and want to be more positive.
I'll work on it.