Conundrum...

I want to increase my speed.
Pretty much everything I've read says that one of the easiest ways to increase speed is:

to lose weight.

Well, that is helpful.

I think I will have to just put some patience pants on (which I DO NOT OWN), and tough it out.

Still depressing. 

I hate running on the treadmill. It sucks.  Today I tried interval training (another way to increase speed), and with the tv on the treadmill not working, and me wanting to die during the "work" intervals, I wanted to poke my eyes out.
Here is what I did:

Interval	How to Run
Warm up	Slowly jog for 5 minutes.
Work Interval	3 minutes at 20 seconds faster than your 5K race pace
Rest Interval	Recover (easy pace) for 3 minutes.
Work Interval	3 minutes at 20 seconds faster than your 5K race pace
Rest Interval	Recover (easy pace) for 3 minutes.
Work Interval	3 minutes at 20 seconds faster than your 5K race pace
Rest Interval	Recover (easy pace) for 3 minutes.
Work Interval	3 minutes at 20 seconds faster than your 5K race pace
Rest Interval	Recover (easy pace) for 3 minutes.
Work Interval	3 minutes at 20 seconds faster than your 5K race pace
Rest Interval	Recover (easy pace) for 3 minutes.
Cool down	Slowly jog for 5 minutes.

Thanks active.com!

*Please note that my "20 seconds faster than...5K race pace" is pretty pathetic.  And it was STILL REALLY HARD FOR ME.

Facing the Music...Weigh-In Monday

WW Scale:  230.4
Wii Fit:  226.0

NEWS FLASH!!!!!!!!

WEIGHT WATCHERS WORKS.
TRACKING FOOD WORKS.


Blargh. 

All the hard work.  Semi-down-the-toilet.  ARGH. 

Normally, I would just give up. 
This would be the conversation in my head:
See?  You aren't going to be successful at this.  See? You can't even lose weight every week.  See?  You might as well just eat what you want, go to the store, get some chips and pizza and donuts--pig out--you are a failure anyway. Look at how much you've gained.  See? You'll always be fat.  Just eat.  You know you want to.  You've missed the gorging and the happiness bad food gives you...C'mon...just eat...

And today, I will fight that voice.  I will pick myself up and go to the gym and be proud of the 4 miles I ran yesterday--the 49 minutes and 25 seconds STRAIGHT that I ran.  Even if I am slow (my mom walks faster than I run!), I can jog for 49 minutes straight!!!!!! This is something I NEVER EVER thought that I'd be able to claim!
Ok.  Time for the pity-party to end, and I need to plan out my week of working out and classes I will take at the gym.


I'm still pretty pissed at myself though.  :(

Dear jam-making friend (you know who you are),

I need to learn how to portion control the delicious food of the gods--homemade jam.  Seriously. Oh, and believe me--I WILL be licking the plate when the bagel thins are in my belly.

I. LOVE. JAM.

Almost as much as Joey.  Maybe more now that I think about it.
(I would embed this, but the owner of the clip "doesn't allow" embedding.  BAH) So click HERE.

Goals...Rewards...

I changed my weigh-in day to Monday, but I am going to post these now. 
I have been thinking about how to adequately (without going overboard) reward/motivate myself for a while now--and this is what I've come up with.

The first week in 2011= Be on-plan (OP) for one week straight.  Tracking everything. 

(Baby steps...baby steps)

By the numbers....

200 = pedicure/massage

190 =  facial (first time!)

180 = waxing

170 = bellybutton pierced

160 = tattoo

HOLY CRAP : 8K #1 Signed up for!!!

I am COMMITTED!!!
HOLY CRAP!!!

APRIL 17 2010!!

5 K #2 SHAMROCK RUN

Sunday, March 13th!!!

I was too chicken to sign up for the 8K. Oh well.  Goal=improve time from 1st 5K. 

Hosting dinner last night in pictures...only minus the dessert (homemade oreo/andes candies cheesecake) and minus the guests (L's mom and stepdad & stepsister and brother-in-law).

part of the sauce

pureed

baking in oven--yep too big...I ignored my gut.

Homemade french bread. Yep. I rock.

See? Some healthy items!  (Well, the veggies at least.)

L helping make the garlic cheese bread.

Our table.  I am super proud of being a grown-up here!

The lasagna wasn't that great. I am sad at its giant-ness and lack of tomato-y yumminess. I made everything from scratch--including the noodles which was a debacle in itself, but oh well.  This might be the last time I stray from Betty Crocker when making lasagna.  Here is the recipe that I was not impressed with--there was far too much, the directions sucked balls, and maybe I should have added the cinnamon that was called for, but that just creeped me out.  P.S.  Did I mention that there was FAR TOO MUCH?  At least my dessert rocked.  As did the baby arugula salad with yummy vinaigrette here.

Even though I miss WI, miss my little sister and my mom and dad and my friends, I love my kitchen.  I love cooking in my kitchen.  LOVE IT!!!

I am looking forward to the end of the holidays to get back into routines--including tracking points hard-core, working out on a schedule (including classes--my gym is finally starting "Body Pump" classes!), and job hunting/trying to figure out my future.

Happy holidays everyone.  I hope you are all wonderful, safe, and happy with all of your loved ones.

WI Tuesday!

Not accurate--but my scale is still in the mail (and no, I don't like to rhyme).

So I got on the Wii Fit--

224.4



-1.6lbs

WAHOOOOOOO:
-50.6 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!

I never thought I'd ever see that number.  I am so proud of myself.  YAY!!!

I think to celebrate, after I go to the grocery store to get some stuff to make my crock pot chicken salsa, I am going to run outside!!!!!!!  :)